Held Back
Posted by Jordan on Wednesday, August 11, 2010
I feel held back from time to time. My husband talks about when we get old but the bottom line is I dont know if I am going to get old with him. I want to get tested but I am just not ready. I dont want to have to focus on KNOWING that I do have it when I have three young babies. I really need to keep my head in the game and take care of them. But I dont like those late night talks with my husband that make me wonder will I be there with you when you grow old and will I be there to watch our grand kids grow old? I do feel held behind that but I know that, that can not hold me back from life. I will know when I am ready to know just right now its not the time.