Holidays with Huntingtons...
Posted by Jordan on Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Welcome 2011.........
When the holidays come around things become more intense, such as making sure we are all together and that the holidays will never be forgotten because the one thing in the back of most of our minds, "Is this the last Christmas." I dont care who you are but when you have someone you love with Huntingtons you often find yourself wondering if its the last anything with this person. I found my self really sad on Thanksgiving. My sister, who has Huntingons along with my mother, was in my brothers kitchen with me cooking and trying to organize. The day seemed like a struggle but that could have been because there was 13 kids and 1 drunk brother. Putting all those things aside I just seemed to be staring at my mom with anger wishing she could get up and start cooking while cool, calm and drinking her ice tea. As I stared at her thinking this all she seemed to do was stare blankly at everyone running around her and trying to talk as much as she could with no response. I feel lonley when I look at her and sad that everything is in the past and thats just it, its in the past and gone, and never coming back.
Christmas came to us real fast this year like it does every other year. This year we had a great family Christmas, one of the best in my opinion. My mom was there and my sister and I cooked. I know she cant cook any more and I know this because at Thanksgiving she tried using non cooked turkey juice to make gravy but she is still able to be there. I know she is listening and watching all of us but I cant help but be sad when I am around her. I cant imagine the pain she is going through or maybe not going through. You can never tell because with this diseise, it wont let you know. Huntingtons doesnt pick its victims but when it has you, it cuts off everything about the person you once were. I am sad but holidays were good, I am sad but I have to be strong, I am sad but I cant make it go away. I am sad.
When the holidays come around things become more intense, such as making sure we are all together and that the holidays will never be forgotten because the one thing in the back of most of our minds, "Is this the last Christmas." I dont care who you are but when you have someone you love with Huntingtons you often find yourself wondering if its the last anything with this person. I found my self really sad on Thanksgiving. My sister, who has Huntingons along with my mother, was in my brothers kitchen with me cooking and trying to organize. The day seemed like a struggle but that could have been because there was 13 kids and 1 drunk brother. Putting all those things aside I just seemed to be staring at my mom with anger wishing she could get up and start cooking while cool, calm and drinking her ice tea. As I stared at her thinking this all she seemed to do was stare blankly at everyone running around her and trying to talk as much as she could with no response. I feel lonley when I look at her and sad that everything is in the past and thats just it, its in the past and gone, and never coming back.
Christmas came to us real fast this year like it does every other year. This year we had a great family Christmas, one of the best in my opinion. My mom was there and my sister and I cooked. I know she cant cook any more and I know this because at Thanksgiving she tried using non cooked turkey juice to make gravy but she is still able to be there. I know she is listening and watching all of us but I cant help but be sad when I am around her. I cant imagine the pain she is going through or maybe not going through. You can never tell because with this diseise, it wont let you know. Huntingtons doesnt pick its victims but when it has you, it cuts off everything about the person you once were. I am sad but holidays were good, I am sad but I have to be strong, I am sad but I cant make it go away. I am sad.