I hate the queston why me.  I know that many of us use it.  I am guilty of using it from time to time.  But I just dont understand why disease and sadness are part of our live.  I know many of you think its the devils work.  Which does not make since to me.  I just dont really buy some red man down stairs, with horns, reaking havoic!  I find it bizzare and sounds like someones bad dream and decided to tell someone who told someone.  But anyway I guess off subject.  I want the feeling of this disease surounding me to go far away.  It never will though even after I have seen every one gone I will still feel that pain.  Which brings up does everything happen for a reason.  People only say that when something does happen from another situation.  But its just a saying there is not reasons for everything.  I highly doubt this.  Nothing happens or is for a reason with Huntingtons besides people you love die from it.  I am not trying to be negative but I cant not be honest with myself or anyone else how I feel.  But really why me and what is the fucking reason for this??