July 27, 2010
I hate the queston why me. I know that many of us use it. I am guilty of using it from time to time. But I just dont understand why disease and sadness are part of our live. I know many of you think its the devils work. Which does not make since to me. I just dont really buy some red man down stairs, with horns, reaking havoic! I find it bizzare and sounds like someones bad dream and decided to tell someone who told someone. But anyway I guess off subject. I want the feeling of this disease surounding me to go far away. It never will though even after I have seen every one gone I will still feel that pain. Which brings up does everything happen for a reason. People only say that when something does happen from another situation. But its just a saying there is not reasons for everything. I highly doubt this. Nothing happens or is for a reason with Huntingtons besides people you love die from it. I am not trying to be negative but I cant not be honest with myself or anyone else how I feel. But really why me and what is the fucking reason for this??
Posted by Jordan.
July 26, 2010
I don't dwell on the fact that my family has this disease going on but I do mourn every day. I suffer from seeing what it is doing. I miss the way things used to be in my family. We used to do everything together. Things have changed because of the increase of depression and abilitie to do certian things. I feel selfish for wanting things to be normal because I know that my sister and mom have no control over these things and if they did it wouldnt be happening. I know that someday I w...
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Posted by Jordan.
July 24, 2010
My mother, where do I begin. She was great, she did a really good job until she started to show changes in herself that we would later find was Huntingtons. When I was 12 is the first time I remeber her turning into a person I did not know. She began to drink and was not around as often as before. Between 12 to about 17 I was tossed around from my sisters to my dads. She had a drinking promblem and kept going to jail. She had changed. A sighn of Huntingtons in a personality change and ...
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Posted by Jordan.
July 24, 2010
I want to tell my story. I want people to know the truth. About the real sadness of my familys disease. I wish I could say it was somthing cureable like cancer but its not and I dont know if it ever will be. I know I am not alone but I feel alone in so many ways. I am loseing this fight, the fight to be strong. My mom and sister are slowing slipping away. But not queitly or peacefully. But more like in a savage way. My mom and sister are fighting for whats theirs, but they are lo...
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