Having a loved one with this disease makes you feel helpless and afraid but another feeling that comes to mind is selfish.  For me I feel selfish sometimes for feeling angry about it when I am not the one with it.  But I am also going through this as well as my loved ones.  I may not be going through the same things they are experiencing but I am going through alot of bad emotions.  Sometimes I feel forgotten because I am healthy and all the attention is on the ones that have it.  Or that it dont matter how I feel because I do not have it.  I get so confused on how I should feel sometimes I wish I couldnt feel for a day.  But most of all I feel like the things they do is always blamed on what they have.  I am pissed off right now and I feel angry and helpless and sad but also selfish but that is one emotion I will disregard for I am not selfish I am human and can only take so much!!