Un Noticed!
The happenings of my life right now are very sweet but also really bitter. I am working, going to college and raising three kids. I love my life I dont want anyone to get it wrong or anything. I love my family and everyone around me. But right now I am dealing with a storm within myself. I dont know how to win the war. And to top things off I am not speaking with my sister. I know she is dealing with alot. But I feel as though my feelings are forgotten. I am in the stands watching this disease compete with my loved ones and ones in the stands are usualy never ask how they feel about it. I planned a trip to the pool and to the home my family used to live in before my parents divorced. Just a simple trip with my sister and mom and my kids.. She had apt so I wanted to wait. Waited for about two hours and then she decided then that she didnt feel up to going. Ok I have been pretty patiente up to this point I cant any more. I waited with three cranky kids to hear that she wasnt going. I would have gone and took my mom but I cant watch my kids and make sure my mom is walking ok all by myself. I cant tell if how I feel is obsered or realistic anymore. I feel mind fucked right now. I still havent spoken to her and I dont think she will call. I wish I was talking to her. I got my job to do a raffle for hotel and food packages over a month and the money will go to her funding to go to China. I found out last night. I still have some more things I am going to do but that will come in time. I am sad. But that will go un noticed.